Confused.

i have a hole inside of me
how could it have happened so
dreamers die tragic deaths but
never in life do they sorrow
perhaps a joke, i feign to be
sadness to reap from madness to sow
i know it's stupid, i know
to wish for all that anyhow

i feel the fervor not, tonight
a bit of anger. a bit of spite.
no trace of blissful delight
what do i want to fight?

X&Y - I

This does not say anything about me. I felt inspired by a song. And I thought I should make a note of it. So here it goes to the X&Y series!

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X.
I feel horrible.
Small. Ugly.
And worthless.
It feels like smothering a child, the way I’m trying to forget you. A fragile body that needs to be broken, suffocated and killed. The destruction of a being.
We were never meant to be. Maybe, it was one of my greatest mistakes to believe the contrary.
But baby I’m sitting right next to you. Can you see? I could smile if you wanted.

Y.
I don't see anything.

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